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Letting Go of What Once Was

25/5/2022

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I’m back.

You may not have missed me, but I’ve been in retreat from social media networks for a few months now. I’ve been in retreat from quite a lot actually - lying low - trying to figure out what on earth was going on and what I needed to do. I understood that I was impacted by these pandemic times, but I'd been beating myself up for my lack of resilience. What did I have to complain about when so many people were so much worse off?

But at my Circle of Trust retreat this past weekend – Navigating Life’s Changes with courage & integrity – it all came home to me.  
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​I realized I was lost in the liminal space created by the Covid pandemic – that disorienting space of transition between letting go of ‘what once was’ and ‘what is yet to come’.

I asked participants this question:
 “Are there things you need to let go of to open more fully to what is to come?”

And I realized that I was holding on to and weighed down by a deep sense of resentment against the pandemic for how it has disrupted everything I know and love. I also recognised the abundance of choices I'm fortunate to have, and that the only thing holding me back was my resentment. Today it feels like a weight has rolled off my shoulders and I’m ready to embrace life again and have a go at the New Normal.  

When change happens in our lives, it always requires a period of transition when we must live with the change, experience it, adjust to it, until it becomes absorbed into our lives as the New Normal. Change always requires a letting go of what we once knew as Normal, and that’s what I have done.

Phew!

With deep gratitude to my mentor and friend, Judy Brown, for her poem ‘Trough’, which we used at the retreat to explore the theme of liminal space.
Trough
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There is a trough in waves,
A low spot
Where horizon disappears
And only sky
And water
Are our company.

And there we lose our way
Unless
We rest, knowing the wave will bring us
To its crest again.

There we may drown
If we let fear
Hold us within its grip and shake us
Side to side,
And leave us flailing, torn, disoriented.

But if we rest there
In the trough,
Are silent,
Being with
The low part of the wave,
Keeping
Our energy and
Noticing the shape of things,
The flow,
Then time alone
Will bring us to another
Place
Where we can see
Horizon, see the land again,
Regain our sense
Of where
We are,
And where we need to swim.
  
Judy Sorum Brown
From The Sea Accepts All Rivers & Other Poems. ©  Miles River Press, 2000.
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The Rebel's Guide to Leadership

12/10/2020

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My birthday seemed an auspicious date to launch my new eBook - The Rebel’s Guide to Leadership.

The book weaves together stories from my personal rebel journey as co-founder and former principal of Matahui School in NZ with new theories of leadership and education. My purpose in writing the book is to encourage people to take a stand on things that matter to them, to challenge the status quo if necessary, to do what they can to help create a more compassionate, just and sustainable world. If you're uncomfortable with the idea of leadership, you may like Meg Wheatley’s definition of a leader as ‘anyone who is willing to help’.

In publishing The Rebel’s Guide to Leadership, I'm raising my rebel flag against the traditional, hierarchical leadership model, and also our society’s emphasis on achievements, affluence and appearance. Our culture has become so externally-focused, too many of us become disconnected from our own hearts and deepest values.

You can find out more about the book and download a free chapter here​.
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Paradox & Covid-19

18/6/2020

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Photo credit:  Andre Hunter on unsplash
There's so much to celebrate and be grateful for here in New  Zealand with community transmission of Covid-19 virtually eliminated and social and business life again able to resume.

Of course there's also much to grieve with loss of jobs and incomes, plans and dreams 
dashed, separation from family and friends overseas and huge uncertainty about what the future holds for us personally and our communities.

The news yesterday of two new cases arriving in New Zealand reminds me of the fragile nature of our border protection and causes anxiety levels to rise again.  It is impossible to predict when our borders will be able to re-open or how society might change permanently as a result of the pandemic. 

Coronavirus has highlighted the complex and paradoxical nature of life.  In our response to the pandemic we are caught between many opposing ideas that pull against each other.
For example:
  • personal freedom & personal restrictions
  • physical separation & deeper human connection
  • selfishness (panic buying) & selflessness and acts of kindness

Global disruption has now grown beyond the Covid crisis with the Black Lives Matter movement sweeping the world.  They demand change and an end to systemic racism.  Covid-19 heralds a time of profound change for the world, which brings another source of tension for us between the desire to hold on to the past and an openness to the inevitability of change. ​
Corona holds a mirror that reflects our relationship with ourselves, with the Earth, with each other and with the broader systems we live in.
- Marian Brehmer -
Our shared pandemic experiences and insights will provide rich material for my next day retreat The Courage Way:  How to embrace paradox & transform conflict on Saturday 1 August in Auckland.   You can find details of this and other upcoming Circle of Trust events here.  Of course, if there's any change due to a second wave of the virus (which, fingers crossed, there won't be), you'll receive a full refund.

What change do you want to see emerge from this crisis?
How will you embody the change you want to see in the world?
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Imagine  
 
Imagine with me for a moment –
don’t worry, I’m not saying it’s real.
Imagine, if you can, that there has been
not a calamity, but a great awakening.
Pretend, just for a moment,
that we so loved our threatened earth
that we stopped going on cruises,
limited international flights,
worked on cherishing the places
where we already are.
In this pretty fantasy, everyone who possibly can
stops commuting. Spends the extra time
with their kids or pets or garden.
We have the revelation that everyone
needs health care, sick leave, steady work.
It occurs to us that health care workers
are heroes.  Also teachers.
Not to mention artists of all kinds
who teach us resilience and joy.
Imagine, if you will,
that we turned to our neighbours
in mutual aid, trading eggs for milk,
checking on those who are elderly
or alone. Imagine that each of us
felt suddenly called to wonder
In this moment, what does the world
Need from me? What are my gifts?
Yes, I know it’s just a fantasy.
The world would never change
So radically overnight.
But imagine.
 
Lynn Ungar
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A time for giving & receiving

3/12/2019

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When giving is all we have 
One river gives
Its journey to the next.

We give because someone gave to us.
We give because nobody gave to us.

We give because giving has changed us.
We give because giving could have changed us.

We have been better for it,
We have been wounded by it--

Giving has many faces: It is loud and quiet,
Big, though small, diamond in wood-nails.

Its story is old, the plot worn and the pages too,
But we read this book, anyway, over and again:

Giving is, first and every time, hand to hand,
Mine to yours, yours to mine.

You gave me blue and I gave you yellow.
Together we are simple green. You gave me

What you did not have, and I gave you
What I had to give—together, we made

Something greater from the difference.
 
Alberto Ríos

On Saturday, at our final Circle of Trust retreat for the year, we considered the lovely paradox of giving and receiving, how giving and receiving can be simultaneous and interconnected acts, like breathing in and breathing out.  How we can’t have one without the other.  The idea that in giving, we receive.  In receiving we give.

Lots of joy and laughter was shared, and also a few tears, as we recalled the best gifts we have given in our lives, and the best gifts we have received.

For many of us, giving comes easily and naturally.  Receiving, on the other hand, can be more challenging.   

Perhaps this is because giving is linked to generosity, a desired virtue. 

Receiving isn’t usually seen in the same light though.  Receiving is often thought of as simply getting something.  It has a more ‘selfish’ connotation, which may be why many of us find it more difficult to receive, or to ask for something.  We don’t want to be seen as selfish or self-serving.

I’ve come to recognise this in myself, how I can too quickly brush off offers of help, even compliments, without considering them, not allowing them to penetrate an invisible wall I’ve created.  This may also be because I’m one of those people who likes to be capable and in control.  So, for me, there is also a sense of vulnerability that comes with receiving or asking for help. 
 
     What gets in the way of receiving for you? 
     What gets in the way of giving?

We humans are complex beings, and a comfortable relationship with giving and receiving may continue to be a work-in-progress.   But this is important inner work, because it offers a deepening understanding of our interdependence.  Giving and receiving are at the heart of our life-giving human connection, our need for each other.

Which leads to a couple more questions …..

     Can we give in a way that makes receiving easy?
     Can we receive in a way that makes giving easy?

Giving and receiving are at the heart of the Circle of Trust approach, which is based on the work of writer, teacher and social activist Parker J. Palmer.  In a Circle of Trust we give and receive the gift of welcome and non-judgement, we give and receive the gift of deep listening, we give and receive the gift of invitation and non-invasion, we give and receive the gift of silence and space for personal reflection and renewal.

The principles and practices we learn in a Circle of Trust can go with us into our personal and professional lives to help us grow and sustain trustworthy relationships and be more effective and resilient in the face of life's changes and challenges. 
 
If you'd like to experience a Circle of Trust retreat, please check out my 2020 calendar of day retreats.  And of course, you're welcome to contact me if you’d like to know more. 

Meanwhile I send you warm wishes for a restful and renewing break over the Christmas period, for happy times with loved ones, doing the things that sustain you and bring joy to your life.
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The Commotion of the World

30/9/2019

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Clearing

Do not try to save
the whole world
or do anything grandiose.
Instead, create
a clearing
in the dense forest
of your life
and wait there
patiently,
until the song
that is your life
falls into your own cupped hands
and you recognize and greet it.
Only then will you know
how to give yourself
to this world
so worthy of rescue.

Martha Postlewaite

Do you sometimes wish for a small clearing in your life - a space where you can unplug for a time from life’s busyness and constant demands? 

Space where you’re able to reflect on the big questions you hold about your life and work?  To reflect on the people and causes you care deeply about.  To recharge your batteries and renew your sense of purpose.
 
Life today is so complex, demanding and fast-changing that we need to carve out clearings like this in our lives.  A regular commitment to reflective practice and personal development helps strengthen our resilience and well-being, and our capacity to lead more, authentic, meaningful and engaged lives, both personally and professionally. 

Due to popular demand, I'm bringing the Courage Way series of one-day retreats to Auckland.  These Circle of Trust retreats, based on the work of writer/teacher Parker J. Palmer, offer trustworthy and supportive space for personal and professional reflective practice.
 
So this is an invitation to create some clearings in your year ahead  - time for you to pause, reflect and recharge your batteries.

You can attend individual days or take advantage of the generous discount and register for the series.  Each retreat will highlight and explore a fundamental principle of the Circle of Trust approach.   All five themes will be woven into each retreat because in a Circle of Trust they can't really be separated, but we will approach each day through a particular lens.  

The Courage Way Retreats:
How to live & lead with integrity                          Saturday 16 November 2019
How to create trustworthy space                          Saturday 15 February 2020
How to listen deeply & question well                   Saturday 16 May 2020
How to embrace paradox & transform conflict  Saturday 1 August 2020
Reflective practice in community                         Saturday 14 November 2020

You can find further details about the individual retreats at the links above.

The principles and practices you learn in a Circle of Trust can go with you into your personal and professional lives to help you grow and sustain trustworthy relationships and be more effective and resilient in the face of life's changes and challenges.  While each retreat is a stand-alone event, registration for the series offers you the opportunity to become part of a trustworthy and supportive community for personal and professional reflective practice.

If you'd like further information, please contact me.
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What we do matters

1/8/2019

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A Small Needful Fact
Is that Eric Garner worked
for some time for the Parks and Rec.
Horticultural Department, which means,
perhaps, that with his very large hands,
perhaps, in all likelihood,
he put gently into the earth
some plants which, most likely,
some of them, in all likelihood,
continue to grow, continue
to do what such plants do, like house
and feed small and necessary creatures,
like being pleasant to touch and smell,
like converting sunlight
into food, like making it easier
for us to breathe.

 
Ross Gay

Copyright © 2015 by Ross Gay. Reprinted from Split This Rock’s The Quarry: A Social Justice Poetry Database.

This beautiful poem reminds me that everything we do matters.  Regardless of how small or insignificant it may seem – a smile, a helping hand,  perhaps deciding to speak up at a meeting - we have no idea of the potential impact of each small and well-intentioned gesture, of the ripples of impact that might spread from one small beginning. 

When we live and lead our lives with integrity, drawing on our gifts as Eric Garner did, doing the things that feel right for us to do, or we feel called to do, we may set in motion a whole ecosystem of life-giving potential.
 

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Remaining Open to Possibility

4/10/2017

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We look with uncertainty
beyond the old choices
for clear-cut answers
to a softer, more permeable aliveness
which is every moment at the brink of death;
for something new is being born in us
 if we but let it.
We stand at a new doorway,
awaiting that which comes . . .
daring to be human creatures,
vulnerable to the beauty of existence.
 Learning to love.
—Anne Hillman -
 
On Saturday I hosted the third in four seasonal Circle of Trust® day retreats I’ve scheduled this year:  The Wisdom of Spring:  Remaining Open to Possibility.

Drawing on the metaphor of spring we reflected on signs of spring in our own lives – new ideas, new directions, new possibilities that may be wanting to emerge in our life and work.

Spring is such an energizing time of year - a time of opening, emergence and new growth.  I’ve come away from the day with my batteries recharged, and my stores of hope and optimism replenished. 

The word ‘possibility’ is in itself a wonderful, life-giving word, charged with hope and opportunity.  It nudges me towards a more open-hearted view of the world, and reminds me of the need to cultivate ‘beginner’s mind’.  I have the kind of mind that works quickly and tends to jump to conclusions and judgments.  My mind has a habit of jumping ahead of a speaker’s words which means I can often decide what I think about what someone’s saying, before they’ve even finished saying it!  So remaining open to possibility will help me to suspend judgment and to develop my capacity for deeper, more open-hearted listening.

Remaining open to possibility also helps take the polarity out of divisive situations by allowing for the possibility that there may be some truth in the other’s perspective, which in turn opens the way for alternative solutions and ways of thinking to emerge. 

Leaders who remain open to possibility have no need for a façade of “I know what needs to be done and I have all the answers”. They’re prepared to be vulnerable and because of this they’re able to establish a group culture where team members feel safe to show up as their authentic selves, risk-taking is welcomed and collaboration is able to thrive.  In this way, remaining open to possibility allows for greater creativity, for co-operative teamwork and piggy-back thinking to flourish.
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  • What green stems of possibility do you see in your life right now?
  • What is unfolding in your life at this time?
  • What are you being drawn towards?
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Instructions for Living a Life

17/1/2017

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Mary Oliver’s poems are imbued with the mystery and wonder of nature.  They stem from her close and deep attention to the marvels she observes on her daily meditative walks in nature.   Mary Oliver’s poetry and this wee snippet above remind me of school field trips to the rocky shore, when I was principal of Matahui School, where learning outside the classroom, and learning from nature, are central.

The very first activity for each child was to choose a comfortable position, somewhere on their own beside a rock pool, and they were to simply sit there – very quietly - very still - and they were to do nothing but observe their pool.

For five full minutes. 

Which is a long time for a child to sit without moving or saying a word.  In fact we would practise this at school beforehand in preparation for the outing.

For this was the key to unlocking the magic and wonder of the rocky shore for the children; for them to gain the most learning from the experience.  As the observers sat there, as still and quiet as the rocks themselves, the sea life within each pool would decide that it was now safe for them to resume their daily business, and the pools would proceed to come to life.   Myriads of sea life, normally unseen when people are clambering about on the rocks, would begin to move about in their own particular way, doing their own particular thing, for their own particular purpose.  All shapes and sizes, some very tiny and easy to miss without paying close attention.  

And there was so much else to notice within the rock pool - the intricate structures of the plant life, the details and colours of the rocks and shells.  It was enthralling to watch, and once the show began, it was suddenly easier to simply sit and observe.  It was a lesson in paying attention and mindfulness, and this was years before mindfulness became the catchphrase it is today.

The children learned so much more from this activity than the adaptive features of plants and animals.  They also learned about the wonder and beauty of nature, the interdependence of the rock pool community with each other and their shared environment, and how important it is that we treat these  rock pool ‘homes’ and their inhabitants with deep care and respect.   

All very important universal understandings that apply on so many levels in the wider world beyond the rocky shore.

And so back to Mary Oliver, and her gift of observing and learning from nature and beautifully capturing and sharing important universal truths, as she does in her poem Invitation:
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Invitation
 
Oh do you have time
to linger
for just a little while
out of your busy
 
and very important day
for the goldfinches
that have gathered
in a field of thistles
 
for a musical battle,
to see who can sing
the highest note,
or the lowest,
 
or the most expressive of mirth,
or the most tender?
Their strong, blunt beaks
drink the air
 
as they strive
melodiously
not for your sake
and not for mine
 
and not for the sake of winning
but for sheer delight and gratitude--
believe us, they say,
it is a serious thing
 
just to be alive
on this fresh morning
in the broken world.
I beg of you,
 
do not walk by
without pausing
to attend to this
rather ridiculous performance.
 
It could mean something.
It could mean everything.
It could be what Rilke meant, when he wrote:
You must change your life.
  

Mary Oliver
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On the Threshold of a New Year

6/12/2016

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In a few weeks another year will become part of history.  A reminder that there is no stopping time.  It’s a constant slipping by.

I try to keep time as a backdrop to my life.  I don't always succeed though.

In our busyness, it’s so easy to let time take over and become the focus.  That’s when life can become a race - a challenge - and our task becomes to beat the clock and cram in as much as possible.  We can become impatient, wanting To Do lists to be ticked off and results to be achieved.

The approach of a new year offers a good opportunity to take some quiet time to reflect on the unfolding journey of the past year and new possibilities that may be emerging.
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Joyce Rupp’s insightful poem offers perfect food for reflection as we stand at the threshold of a new year.
When the time is ripe

When the time is ripe,
the vision will come.
when the heart is ready,
the fruit will appear,
when the soul is mature,
the harvest will happen.

not to worry
about all the unspoken,
the unnamed, the undelivered.
not to hurry
the sprouts out of seeds,
the weeds out of garden.

let it all grow.
wait for the ripening.

yearn for the yielding
if you must,
but be patient,
trust the process.

talk to the restlessness,
sit with confusion,
dance with the paradoxes,
and sip tea
with the angel of life.
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smile while you wait,
empty basket in hand,
all too eager
to snatch the produce
of your spiritual path.
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– Joyce Rupp
​I offer some questions as a guide for your reflections.  Or you may wish to go in other directions the poem takes you.
 
  • What hopes, dreams and visions have you carried with you?
  • What seeds have you planted?
  • What has come to fruition?
  • What joys and challenges have you experienced?
  • Where do you need more patience in your life?
  • What do you wish to carry forward?
  • What do you choose to let go of?
 
Meanwhile I’m sending out warm wishes for a restful and renewing holiday break, for happy times with loved ones, doing the things that sustain you and bring joy to your life.  
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Time Out

3/11/2016

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I've been thinking a lot about Time lately - how no one seems to have enough of it, and everyone bemoans the lack of it.  Yet today, being busy seems to have become a social badge of achievement.   We like to tell each other how busy we are. 

What worries me is that when we get too caught up in the surface everyday whirl of our lives, we risk losing deeper connections - important connections - vital even - connection with Self; with others; with nature; connection with the wonder and mystery that life holds.

I believe that many of the personal, social, economic and environmental problems we face across our world today stem from the loss of one or more of these vital connections. Finding the solutions will begin with re-discovering connection.

My blog post today has turned into a poem of sorts.....
Time Out
When did life become a race? 
A race to first up the ladder,
to become the best, the busiest,
to acquire and do the most.
 
When did time become a scarcity?
A thing to be saved and guarded
and meagerly doled out  
into the timetable that is our life.
 
When did leisure time stop being leisurely? 
When did we start cramming our moments
for fun, for friends and family,
into schedules with too few gaps?
 
When did we forget how to wait?
To want everything the world offers and Now.
 
When did we forget that it takes time,
generous time,
to create, to achieve, to connect
to do good things that are truly worth doing.
 
When did exhaustion, overwhelm and burnout become everyday words?
 
And when is someone going to call Time Out?
 
Time for stillness, for rest, for open space,
time for taking stock of our lives
what we’re doing
where we’re going
the things that truly matter to each of us
on our journeys.
 
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Mennie Scapens
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